I have been contemplating a good discussion about bamboo flutes being one who makes and plays bamboo flutes of various kinds. I thought it would be interesting to take you back to the beginning of my company Kolbe Flutes and discuss that aspect of my spiritual journey, a life changing journey that changed my course drastically.

So let me take you back to August 14th 2004, the feast day of one of my heroes St.Maximilian Kolbe. At this phase of my life I worked in the field of nursing, long hours and lots of stress and pressure. I severely injured a muscle in my hip assisting a nurses aid with a patient who was about to fall, as we lowered this gentleman to the ground dead weight I could feel the muscle in my hip tearing followed by an instant rush of heat, dizziness, nausea, I knew I was injured and I knew it was serious. Over the next week the pain became so intense I had to lean to the left when walking, I was forced o leave work and collect L&I for my injury, this began some intense months of physical therapy which was to put it bluntly, excruciating.

The years prior to this starting in 2001 were years marked with trial and disappointment at every turn, so much darkness, financial stress, and the near loss of my wife made this injury the on the cake, I sunk like a led balloon into deep dark depression, my motivation was sapped and as far as I was concerned I was done, I lost hope that I would or could become anything useful…

(To be continued)

It's been an all around hard day, night, week, I'm seeking some perspective now, perspective to pain, sickness, loss. I know in my heart of hearts that within these trials, these sufferings lay greater tools for advancement, the problem is finding them and not quitting or compromising what I know is right. I have two parts of me that are always battling for control: there's the spiritual contemplative side of me that is a peaceful warrior, thoughtful, prayerful and hopeful. There is also a side of me that is very impatient, at times bossy, overpowering and extremely industrious and this one hurts people, this one gets me in trouble.

In a recent spiritual reading it was stated that I have incredible bright beautiful energy from my heart to the top of my head, bright, strong, full of hope and inspiration, yet a bit diminished at my mouth. Below my heart and down is this dark, dim energy, somewhat hopeless and staggering for life. This energy is weak and frail.

I was told there are three chakra points here that are suffering tremendously and in danger of becoming completely dark. I have seven regular points and an eighth rising over my head which I interpret as a special gift of intuition and communication with the divine, this I was told is beautiful and very bright.

Back to the darker regions though. Sometimes I'm afraid to speak and say what I feel, sometimes I get nervous and this energy around my mouth finds itself diminished by fear of failure, compromise and non-expression. My head is creative center bursting with life and ideas, so much so that at times it almost makes me crazy, I'm desperate for an outlet. My mouth is weak though, I get a nervous gut, I am good at hiding this and can seem very confident to alot of people, but I have a very weak stomach at times and it's here I lose the resolve and willpower to nurture the creative ideas in my head, this causes great conflict within me, a battle, but I see it so clearly now, it makes so much sense/

My goal for 2008 is to balance out these chakra pionts and become full of strong light, no more playing games, no more allowing powerful ideas to fall into the waste bin of life, no more hiding, no more running, no more fearing, no more holding back gifts of healing for other people.

I'm gaining perspective even as I write, I'm gaining strength, knowledge, wisdom, insight, passion and I refuse to quit, to lie down and right now I command all sadness, depression, anxiousness, fear, dark energy to be banished from my life, from my families life, from this blog and I ask peace, blessing, prosperity, wisdom and revelation to fill me until I overflow with hope, love, commitment, art..life.

Pure gold in the early morning sun lay beneath a willow tree in the autumn dew in hopeful expectation of what lies ahead. Your optimism is your greatest gift, show love and mercy and may they never leave your lips. The hands you hold up to the sun are meant to heal the broken and bring life to the despairing. Let not your soul be consumed by obscurity, doubt, degradation, become a vessel of light, become hope, and become love. Unleash the full force of your creativity, tear down the walls and barriers that hinder your potential, complacency and sadness must end. Two hands clasped around an olive branch, two vessels of oil- one pure gold, one filled with sediment and dirt, a stone hallway and cobblestone...

Sometimes visions or mental images come as if seen through a dimly lit room, you see it but the clarity is lacking, this may be due in part to ones physical state at the moment of receiving. Lack of sleep, poor diet, stress, all of these things cloud the mind of the vision and may hinder an intuitive visionary from receiving clearly.

Pornography is an interesting one being that over time it destroys the natural pleasure center in the brain and is an addiction like any drug. In many cases pornography degrades the human person body and soul, the one addicted to these images loses respect for the human person and see only and object, this is the opposite of love based living, pornography is about self consumption and degradation.

If you have a visionary gift or perceive that you may have one you must first seek to cleanse your temple, your body. Our bodies are meant to be conduits for divine encounters, not all have the same gifts but God operates through human vessels, the cleaner the vessel, the clearer and the communication lines will be with the divine.

Eating healthy as I have stated many times is so critical and I believe is the foundation for healthy spiritual living. Trans fats, white sugar and flour, excessive caffeine rob the body of life giving nutrients and limit our mental capabilities. Anger, stress, fatigue, depression in many cases are directly linked to what we consume, and when a person feels these things constantly they draw inward to protect themselves and it's here that other destructive habits form roots that slowly consume body and soul.

If you have a visionary gift you have a mission; you are meant to be a healer, you are part of a greater plan to turn humanity back towards love based living and away from destruction, but you must first deal with your baggage, physical baggage, mental baggage, do all you can to break free from the destructive cycles that keep you from using your gift for the betterment of everyone around you.

Namaste,

Since I was young I have always had a strong intuition about people, places, objects, sometimes words will come concerning the person next to me, sometimes an image, sometimes a sense. For most of my life I did nothing with these impressions, I just played them off as simply biological and to be honest some of it may be biological, I do not believe the spiritual and the physical body can be separated while we are living, they seem to move as one. Some call it prophecy, some call it clairvoyance, I choose not to name this phenomenon, I do not want to be categorized as this or that, and they simply are.

As an adult these senses seem much clearer, more defined, I'm at a point in my life where I want to help people to fulfill their life’s mission, to be the person they KNOW they should be. I feel these gifts or whatever one may call them must be exercised, celebrated and honed and I a willing to start moving out and growing in this area.

Over the years I have used these gifts on an individual basis and the results have always been positive. I cannot and will not guarantee the accuracy of what I see or feel from person to person, that's foolish because we are imperfect and we see imperfectly, I simply offer what I see or hear, it's up to the individual to keep or reject what is given to them. Images or words given may also be for a future time not yet arrived, this I have experienced.

If you would like a reading, please send me an e-mail to springrain_iwf@yahoo.com if you choose to remain anonymous that's fine as well, just let me know a few details about yourself and what you are dealing with and I'll share what I receive. Sometimes nothing comes, please do no be disappointed if this happens, I do not want to fake things, if nothings there nothings there. I look forward to chatting with some of you.


Namaste,

As I was pondering my next blog entry of 2008 I thought I'd discuss my feelings on fear based living verses living a love based existence. Here in the United States we have unfortunately become accustomed to living in fear of many things especially since 911. September 11th, as horrible as it was has become a tool to drive fear into the people of this country, simply raising and lowering the terrorist threat level our minds are driven back to the horrible events of 911 and the lingering fear that if we do not hang on every word of our leaders, support the surge, fight the axis of evil and so on that their are hoards of terrorists waiting to consume our country and convert it to radical Islam. These events have been used as weapons themselves to keep our country in line by means of fear. Forgive me if I'm offending anyone, but this is how I feel, that the American people are pawns in a nasty game, held in fear.

Controlled behavior is not necessarily good behavior; it's simply controlled, subdued. We have seen this in Iraq, citizens changing loyalties faster than one can blink an eye, and all because of a shift of power one direction or the other. To many Iraqis safety lies in the one who has the most power. This very moment a terrible slaughter is happening In Kenya, why? Because of ehtnic fears, fear forces human beings to do wicked things, to destroy each other.

The one who lives a fear based existence feels out of control, powerless and often times this fear leads to violence as a way to get noticed, a way to gain control, a way to gain respect and a name as seen in light of some of the recent school shooters, they believe they represent the powerless, the weak, the down trodden and violence is their way to gain control.

So what about love? To quote from the movie "The Mission", "If might is right then there is no room for love in this world". Love, what does it mean to live an existence based on love? The one who loves humbly loves his or her self, not in a conceited manner, but as one who knows who they are. The one who loves accepts that they are not perfect; they accept their imperfections as gifts, tools to help others heal.

The one who loves is able to forgive themselves for all their shortcomings and forgive those who have caused them hurt, they can freely ask forgiveness for the hurt they have caused others and accept the response that they receive. The one who loves does not judge based on ethnicity, sexual preference, financial status, the one who loves sees all human beings as his or her equal. The one who loves shows compassion, not pity, a compassionate person is not afraid to get down in the trenches where the pain is setting aside social status or race. A loved based existence is an outward existence of sharing, of building up instead of tearing down. Love does not need to control people or manipulate, it is non judgmental.

So this year lets try to be people who love even with all of the fear mongering going on in the world, love is much stronger than fear, love is much stronger than death, let's turn the tides in 2008.

I do not have much mental energy tonight, but I wish you all the very best for 2008, good night and peaceful dreams my friends.


Namaste,